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JUST MY STUFFAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.comBlogger256125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-76493270380055261792016-04-05T13:52:00.001-04:002016-04-05T13:52:11.256-04:00Elfenatelier<a href="http://www.elfen.be/index.php?pag=600">Elfenatelier</a><br />
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trying to figure out this language so I can figure out the patternAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-39086380717971756432016-02-25T16:17:00.001-05:002016-02-25T16:17:29.724-05:00Victorian Motto Sampler Shoppe: New give-away, new floss boxes, enter now!<a href="http://victorianmottosamplershoppe.blogspot.com/2016/02/new-give-away-new-floss-boxes-enter-now.html?spref=bl">Victorian Motto Sampler Shoppe: New give-away, new floss boxes, enter now!</a>: I am as busy as ever around here. Trying to finish my orders for stitched and framed mottoes and I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-39322243098383074752016-02-10T11:59:00.001-05:002016-02-10T11:59:06.800-05:00Well its almost middle of FebruaryHere we go I have not kept up with mhy blogging as I hoped I would. I am not sure why maybe cause I dont have a life so not much to write about. Hmmm. Need to do something about that for sure.<br />
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Its a cold and snow flurry kinda day. Need to concentrate on paying bills today as well as working on a jewelry piece that I am currently making. Its a bit boring so my interest isnt in it. I think perhaps I will start another project and then go back and forth between the two that way it will be less boring and perhaps i will finish it at a faster clip.<br />
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I have been emailing a gentleman who sounds fascinating. Of course I will take my time to get to know him prior to meeting up. Plus he doesnt live in town so that might be a plus right now. Not sure what I want except maybe someone to have fun with right now. Im not looking to be married again. 1st marriage was bad, second one was great but I dont think I can find anyone that would take his place even with him gone. Besides at times I enjoy being able to do something when I want and with whom I want. But I still miss him so very much and always will.<br />
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2 new bracelets that I have recently made.</div>
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The other project is a peyote stitched bracelet. I am doing it as a challenge piece for a facebook group I am part of now. Each month the group picks a bead weaving stitch to try and you have to make something with the stitch. We will see what the next one is but for now I am working on they peyote stitch.<br />
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My high blood pressure is back it went away for a while after my left knee replacement but now its back and I am back on my medicine for it. Sigh. <br />
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The left knee replacement didn't help my back much. I still cant stand very long without the back hurting. Although the good news is when I stand my left knee doesn't hurt as it did. My right knee was replaced for a 2nd time in 2013 so now I have new knees (well fairly new with the right) and look forward to spring and getting out walking and hopefully bike riding. I am only 6 weeks post knee replacement and afraid with snow and Ice to go out much for walking. Besides its bitter cold as well right now. <br />
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Winter finally arrived after a prolonged fall but still having off and on mild days in the 40s so not much snow yet this year.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-62131770487729354112015-12-29T10:32:00.000-05:002015-12-29T10:32:27.015-05:0012/29/15I have fallen in love with making hand woven beaded medallions. Most likely for earrings and necklaces but not sure yet. Could be joined for bracelet and necklaces as well I think.<br />
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I have made 4 so far various sizes and working on a new one right now with cube beads.</div>
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I have been shunned by all of my late husbands kids. I never thought that the oldest one would ignore me but he did. Not a call did I receive on Christmas, Thanksgiving, when I was in the hospital with my knee replacement, and on Halloween the day my husband died. I guess I do not have the family that I thought I had.<br />
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I had a girl friend come over for Christmas Dinner with the kids and Mom she would have been alone on Christmas afternoon so she came to my house for dinner and some presents. I hope she had a great time as she is having issues with one of her kids and was down about it. I so enjoyed having her with me. Once my Mom has passed on I will have friends who don't have anywhere to do on Christmas come over for dinner. The more the merrier. I will fix turkey then again. My mother does not like turkey so we have a roasting chicken and dressing for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I will learn to make her cranberry salad as I love it. My dressing is fabulous and sweet potatoes roasted as well.<br />
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Now on to New Years I have no one special to share it with nor any place to go. I will watch Michigan State University Spartans take on Alabama in the cotton bowl on New Years Eve and maybe the rose bowl on New Years day otherwise its just a day.<br />
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I am making some jewelry again now that I can sit at my desk for longer periods of time. My left knee healed nicely but still is painful if I walk to much on it. Cant wait for spring so that I can start walking and loose more weight.<br />
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I am working on the cross stitch sampler again. Its to represent my husband and its almost done. I think I will but his initials on it and make a pillow out of it for my day bed. I so want a full size bed but cant afford it.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-44966883639762607252015-12-20T15:14:00.003-05:002015-12-20T15:16:59.384-05:00My Jewelry for SaleI am going to post my jewelry that I make here. I hand weave all my creations using beading thread, beading needles, and various beads. I use a lot of seed bead when I make these awesome necklaces, bracelets and earrings. I also make sets occasionally. Let me know what you think of my creations. email me at pennyi1@att.net to find out prices and availability.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-41814501363681339552015-12-15T08:11:00.001-05:002015-12-15T08:11:16.314-05:00December 15, 2015Well I got out yesterday first day since I had my left knee replaced the day before Thanksgiving. Once a month some of the ladies that I graduated high school with get together and have lunch at a local restaurant that is owned by another one of our long ago class mates. It was nice getting out hard to get comfortable though I kept trying to make the left knee comfortable not much luck there yet. Came home tired and took a nap I guess that is normal while healing from surgery of only two weeks ago.<br />
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However, as much as I enjoyed getting out once the lunch is over I have only one friend. The ladies talk with me but after wards they talk to each other on facebook and on the phones etc but I am completely forgotten. I dont know how to reach out anymore I have tried but never heard back from others.<br />
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My one best friend is the one I grew up on the same street with. She and I met at junior high school and graduated from the same high school all those years ago. Then we lost touch for over 30 some years as we both married, moved away raised out kids, and worked. In 2013 we met up at an inprompto brunch that some of us old time grads wanted to get together and catch up. She is the only one now that talks to me and makes sure I am alright. She and I talk often and we take care of her pups when she needs us too. this year I am making her a delightful birthday cake.<br />
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So I am always lonely these days and I miss Art each and every day. But at Christmas its huge that he is gone as he loved to decorate outside and inside for it. We always started decorating the Friday after Thanksgiving inside and outside lights before it got cold. Here in the new house we dont decorate much no room for my Nativity set I made or my village. We have a few lights up outside and the tree of course but that's about all now days.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-45290769519028427412015-12-13T07:46:00.001-05:002015-12-13T07:46:36.244-05:00December 2015Another Christmas almost upon us. I have had a ok year. Bankruptcy was finalized, student loans were forgiving since I am now disabled and unable to work. Daughter was in a boot all spring, summer until October for tearing her tendon and muscle around her ankle. Now I am recovering from my left knee being replaced. Two years ago my right knee was replaced for the second time. I now have two new knees and hope that it will help me with my weight loss and pain level. <br />
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I have had some blood pressure issues since the surgery which was on the day before Thanksgiving. My blood pressure would not come up I was in recovery for longer than normal and had to stay a day longer due to lightheartedness and low blood pressure and low oxygen saturation level.<br />
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I have to cancel my surgeons post op appointment since I dont have money for the co pay. Have to reschedule it after the first when I have money again. I was only able to get Alex one present due to the cost of the laptop. I hope he is happy with it. Mom got him a few things as did Beth.<br />
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I dont want anything for Christmas what do I need. I got new shoes and snow boots that is all I really needed.<br />
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Christmas still seems not as festive and happy as it once was since Atttila (Art) is no longer among us. He so loved decorating inside and out for Christmas and Halloween as well actually. I feel blah now at Christmas even though I fight it. Our wedding anniversary in Sept. doesn't bother me as much now either so maybe one day Christmas wont feel so blah. Halloween the day he died will always be in my mind and heart. The day he left me all alone.<br />
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Now onward to face Christmas and the New Year. New Year new beginnings!!!!!!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-21084766344553251852015-09-27T14:01:00.003-04:002015-09-27T14:01:58.712-04:0045th high school reunionLast night was my 45th high school and I am on the reunion committee. <br />
And one thing is abundantly clear to me I am no more part of them now as in high school. Always sitting alone most of the time. None of the people except a very few approached me mostly I was ignored and lonely.<br />
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Maybe my curse now is to be alone always to be a failure. Things have gone so far south since Art died 3 years ago. I know not how to make friends or to put myself out there apparently. I am destined to be this way for acting as I did when younger?<br />
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I have tried to make friends with some people but I am always out the outside looking in to close friends and relations. Also almost all of the people are not fat as I am and they have spouses to be with. I guess this will always be my lot in life looking but never included.<br />
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Yes I am down and lonely and a failure.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-33421341978064949412015-07-11T11:42:00.001-04:002015-07-11T11:42:29.426-04:00It's Been AwhileI really want to blog but I just keep not doing it. I wonder why that is. I can't seem to get some things done.<br />
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New Necklace. Need to find the pictures of the rest I have been doing. Most of them are in instagramAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-86711453332200506222014-09-26T12:49:00.002-04:002014-09-26T12:49:35.767-04:00Fall / Autumn is upon us again.I haven't been writing much at all this past year. I cant remember if I really ever did write. I have been not so busy these past months. But, with fall coming on I will get back into the baking and cooking mood yet again. Yesterday I made homemade scratch cinnamon applesauce from macintosh apples. Then I made a huge (yes huge) batch of scratch 4 cheese mac and cheese. Took some over to a friend of mine who just lost her mother the day before yesterday. Took her some applesauce as well.<br />
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I picked her up and we went to lunch with some ladies we went to high school with. Yes, we were high school and even junior high school. We had a great time talking and reminiscing about our school years.<br />
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I have been busy making crocheted shawls, lapghans, and hats for a friends church group and have a huge bag full of tied fleece blankets made for the local animal shelter. We have a no kill shelter here and as a matter of fact thats how we got our beagle. My daughter was a foster for several dogs until she fostered Clifford our rescue beagle. Everyone swears that Clifford sabotaghe day better ed his adoption appearances by howling and jumping up etc so that he could stay with us. Well and thats just what happened last September my daughter formerly adopted him before we had to move. He is a terrific dog and very amusing to have around. If your down, clifford the beagle, will find a way to make you smile and brighten your day.<br />
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I am facing the second year anniversary of the passing of my husband of 30 years. Halloween was the day he died and I make an effort to keep the day light and of course we usually have a bunch of cute kids in costumes to make the day better. At least thats what I focus one.<br />
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I have enjoyed the new house (formerly my home I grew up in) very much. Smaller and easier to clean, keep heated and cooled when necessary. The huge front window lets in lots of light. For instance right now the cats are laying in the sun in the living room in front of the window soaking up the sun. Its a contented picture.<br />
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I was sitting outside for a while this morning soaking up my portion of the sun and realized that dew on the grass shown like little diamonds. I suppose thats not new to most but I never really looked at it before probably to busy with family and working to really notice. My grasses that I planted in the front are doing well too. I have ornamental grasses all along the front of the house where bushes used to be I like it much better with the grasses instead of those dying bushes. <br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-84562499576707413702014-07-01T08:50:00.002-04:002014-07-01T08:50:32.671-04:00Tuesday (Warning Venting)Went to the doctor yesterday and received some new meds for the depression and the pain of the arthritis. Hopefully these meds allow me to sleep more than I do right now. At best I get 4 hours interrupted sleep a night. I'm tired of being tired and grumpy and in pain.<br />
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Heavy storms last night made my double shepherds hook bend right to the ground. I will have to bury it with a shovel now to try and get it past he bent part. Not sure if we can straight it out. Its still gloomy out like it could storm some more. I enjoyed listening to the storms last night love the thunder and rain sounds but it didn't help me sleep any.<br />
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I think my depression is back and refusing to go away. Started 17 yrs ago when I lost my son Josh in a car accident now it is continuing from loosing Attila/Art, my house and my entire life as I knew it. Very few friends if only one. I cant do what the others due because of money issues. Loosing all my savings and my retirement trying to take care of Attila/Art before his death and paying for his tremendous amount of medicine that he needed plus all the medical equipment. I dont resent doing all that for him if only he would have survived. I miss him daily and I wonder if that will ever get better. Today i a weepy day for me down about medicine I cant afford, doctors I cant afford, treatments for the arthritis I cant afford. Trying to loose weight to help my health and my arthritis is not going well as a matter of fact I have gained again since the pain is keeping me from doing things like walking, mowing the grass but I have been out doing some weeding as long as my back allows.<br />
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Going places and doing most things cost money in gas and fees to do things. I have a stove payment now monthly since the old one quit working. That will take more money I also need to save up money for the garage roof as it is slowly disintegrating. We will be picking up more of the roof today after the storms last night. Cant go to work out due to gas prices and amount of gas I can use a month. some of the constraints are really wearing on me. Maybe that is adding to the depression, not sleeping, pain cycle im in not sure but possibly. <br />
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Started a new shawl but need wool yarn to finish another wheelchair shawl I have half made. Made several shawls and several mandalas since I last wrote anything. Reading books 3 or 4 a week as well.<br />
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What am I going to do with my life. I am so tired of staring at this house, these walls etc. Cant take a vacation as we have no money to spend to stay somewhere or even drive somewhere. Yes I am unhappy but as aways this too shall pass I suppose.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-79755585606049700472014-05-26T18:17:00.003-04:002014-05-26T18:17:57.172-04:00Another Summer Begins..................Here we are at the ceremonial beginning of yet another summer. My second summer alone and in a new place. I have my herb garden somewhat planted. I want to ad more seeds next week. We had some great BBQ Ribs made in the oven slow baked in a low degree oven for almost 4 hours. With some easy peasy baked beans made from cans of port and beans with coleslaw and macaroni salad. Mom made some sweet potatoes but not as good as the ones we had at thanksgiving. After we drove over to the Frosty Korner for some ice cream. All and all I nice start to the summer.<br />
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I am still working on loosing weight, I have the fence for the dog pen and I need the posts after next week then I can begin to make the dog pen. <br />
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This new place is cooler than the old place. Granted the living room heats up but it doesn't have any windows that open up. Just the screen on the front door and the ceiling fan running. I need to figure out how to fix the small window in that room to open it up so that we can have some air circulation to help cool it. The bedrooms are lots cooler with more windows and this place is only one floor so no upstairs to heat up and it has a huge maple tree on the west side of it to help shield it from the hot sun.<br />
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Lots more yard than we had before so daughter has more mowing to do and trimming than we use to. I wish I could mow but my back wont let me for very long. I hate the pain in my left knee and back on a continuous basis the arthritis med isnt working anymore I'm in pain all the time but I don't know what my insurance which is cheaper and covers less will allow me to have. This med is free no copays if I order it through their mail order but I have to take ibuprofen constantly with it.<br />
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I know its been awhile since I posted cant seem to find much to post about. Lots of people have a life me not so much.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-8331430705553322302014-02-25T08:55:00.000-05:002014-02-25T08:55:17.645-05:00Changing, Listening, Leaving things behindTime heals thats what everyone says. Time has gone by and my strength has returned at times I thought I would never make it threw things that life kept throwing at me. Loneliness, money, place to live, car problems (constant van issues) issues with A and his autism, but here I am still standing. I am sure there is much more issues ahead of me that I will half to face. At times my first thought is to run and hide get away from all the problems, issues, etc that plague my life but running will not help only facing them head on will allow me to continue on my way.<div>
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At times I feel that I have given an unfair load to carry and wonder why me. Why was my life taken away and shaken up so drastically. Why must I deal with all these hardships. Why couldn't something good stop all of the misery that I have had to face. Why Why Why. So far I have not had any answers but I cannot stop and contemplate and I cannot keep asking why for whatever reason this is my life and I must do the best that I can with it. </div>
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One thing I have learned that locking myself up in this house is not good for me. I need people, friends, a life, not time to feel more sorry for myself now or ever. I have been praying in my own fashion and I believe that it has been helping me somewhat. Perhaps I have some part of me keeping me back in areas that I should not allow it to. I know I have changed.</div>
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I have changed better for good or ill circumstances have changed me in ways I never thought I would have to deal with at least not at this young of age. Sure you expect to loose parts of your family as you and they age but I was not ready for it this young. I am trying to find a way to put it behind me and keep on going. I have a lot of years ahead of me and I prefer it not to be lonely years and alone years. I need more to my life than sequestering myself in this comfortable prison. I have shadows following me and I feel them at times. I long to see them other times but so far no.</div>
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I am packing away things i use to have an interest in during my 30 years of marriage. I cannot seem to get back into the things I did then. Perhaps its all wrapped up in the changing that is happening to me. Perhaps I will never ever go back to those things again. Change isn't always bad I am finding out its just different. As we all grow we all change. Two things are still with me and they have been throughout my life as a young child to now and they are my crocheting that I do and my love of photography. I love art as well but cannot draw a lick. I used cross stitching as an outlet for my art. I made pictures with that but my heart is not in it any longer. I use to love it and Attila love what I made as well perhaps thats why my desire for that craft is gone it was to wrapped up in my marriage.</div>
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Time to move on and learn new things make new or get reacquainted with old friends from before my years of companionship. Find something that becomes a passion for me again. Learn to look forward to the future and looks forward to maybe companionship once again. Living along does not appeal to me so i am thankful for the kids but that alone is not enough for me now. I have learned that much and I am sure that I have much much more to learn after all how can we grow and change if we stop learning.</div>
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Next afghan I am thinking of making. It was in the background on the Breaking Amish Show on TLC last year or so. I love the pattern.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-68429961913118754912014-01-23T13:32:00.001-05:002014-01-23T13:32:35.512-05:00new crochet magazine onlineThere is a new online crochet magazine <a href="http://crochetsavvy.com/" target="_blank">Crochet Savvy</a> and it looks to be cool lots of tips and how to's and patterns.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-60466962390877843012014-01-21T11:49:00.001-05:002014-01-21T11:49:59.975-05:00New tabI have decided to add a new tab to keep track of the writing that I like to do. Perhaps that will help with my moods these days and it definitely will give me a new focus something different to do. Although to tell the truth I need to be in a certain frame of mind to write anything let alone a story. So I decided that short stories might be the answer. I do not think I am a good enough writer to have anything published and truth be told I don't know where or how to publish anything. Especially when funds are low so that leaves self publishing out of the question.<br />
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Grandson is meeting this afternoon with a behaviorist I hope this helps with his tantrums. We will see. I am so very tired of having to deal with them sometimes twice a week. Its hard trying to learn about autism and help him but I keep at it. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17005089856019300280noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937086161098962072.post-56515342746601825442014-01-19T07:52:00.000-05:002014-01-19T07:52:39.581-05:00Additional PagesI have decided to add pages for my crocheting and cross stitching projects instead of having them all lumped together on one page. That way I hope it would be easier to see my creations instead of scrolling up and down trying to find the posts of the projects. There isn't much to show for now as I have not been doing much of any thing except reading. I guess the winter is wearing on me and the darkness is bothering me. I really hate Michigan almost all of the the time. I wonder what my life would have been like had we taken the step to leave here years ago. I know my husband had wanted to but he kept backing out on me. Oh how my life might have been different now had he actually followed through. I was ready to go the kids were portable and we could have sold the house that I lost last year. I would have had a family too instead of being up here with little family left. <br />
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My mother is doing well but its only a matter of time before its her turn she will be 88 this year. Then I have just the kids and hardly any friends to speak of. I'm so tired of being lonely and of being alone but no one will look at me and I am constantly kept here at the house do to lack of money to do anything with. I can't seem to get any money saved up for anything. I need a new stove, the garage needs a new roof, and possibly a new dryer how will I ever get all those things done. My furniture that i have is old and worn out no money for anything new and I would be mortified for any one to see it all except for the couch my mom left here in the house. I have nothing left to sell anymore and no money to purchase fabric to hand dye for embroiderers. I have not been able to sell any of my hand crocheted things to earn extra money, with the health problems getting a job is out I tried for 2 years and no one would hire me. I have been sued by numerous creditors left over from my life with my husband and some more will follow I am sure. I should be about finished with them suing me and I will never ever get any type of credit cards again. Making payments is impossible anymore. I so miss Attila (Art).<br />
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I cant help but wonder why anything I try to do never ever works out. These days I seem to be weepy more and down more. Probably better I don't have any friends who would want to be around me like this and I can't even go to shows and lunch with some of my high school friends I have made contact with again as the money is just not available. <br />
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