Its been a week now since he left this world.  I still have issues with him being gone at times I think that I will turn a corner and he will be there but it doesn't happen,  I slept good the first two nights but after the family left I have been waking up constantly and not sleeping all night long.  I'm not sure why unless its because I am use to waking up during the night to take care of him.  I miss that man so much. 

I was one of the fortunate ones who found someone to love deeply.  And, he loved me deeply too.  The last words he ever said to me was that he didn't want to leave me.  I will remember that always.  I went with my Mom yesterday to Grand Rapids to pick up his ashes so after the winter is over I can take him back to DC which really was his home.  He hated moving here to Michigan but we never had the money to move back.  But I can still take him up to the mountains back there and let his ashes spread he use to love riding his motorcycle up in those mountains years ago.

I,m slowly working on a christmas ornament for an exchange that I am in and then I have 12 to do next year for an exchange.  I need focus and one day at a time.,  Of course I also have Alex's online schooling to help with.  But I am just to dang young to be a widow.