Its been a month now since he has been gone. I had people over yesterday for a wake or memorial whatever you want to call it. Two kinds of bite size bite size snacky things for people to munch on when they were having some wine, pop. I also had some ham, cheese and rolls and my very favorite thing port wine cheese balls.
I bought several kinds of red wine but people didnt drink much of it at all. I drank my bottle of white late season riesling. It was good and sweet not ice wine but deffinately late harvest. I have a bottle of winter white bottled by a northern michigan winery. Art and I use to go there at least once a year and buy some wine
I need to pick up some cream de cocoa and a small bottle of Grand Marnier. I will toast Art on Christmas eve with his favorite the Grand Marnier. I am having spelling issues with the drinks and the snacks names to hopefully you will know what I mean.
I will never get over missing him. It was nice to have a house ful of people yesterday and the talking and just having someone around. I dont have any friends cause Art took all my time up. I wanted a large family but was denied that as well. I have issues in preceiving that I will be alone for a long time, I so need him in my life.,
I go to grief counseling next week again. I need to get started on the cookies as well. Im probably going to have issues for a long time. I so miss him. He was my friend, the love of my life, he was the center of my universe.