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Thursday, April 25, 2013

I wish I knew>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I wish I knew what the future holds
I wish I knew what I was suppose to do
I wish I knew why my life went crazy
I wish I knew but I haven't got a clue

I wish I knew where I lost myself
I wish I knew myself as one
I wish I knew where my identity went
I wish I knew when I lost the sun.

I wish I knew what life is about
I wish I knew how to find me
I wish I knew why I can't cope
I wish I knew but I cannot see.

I wish I knew why I am this way
I wish I knew why I always lose
I wish I knew where my talents lie
I wish I knew where I lost my muse.

This day is a day that I cannot seem to do anything right.  Every thing I have tried to make has not been a success.  I love to design and make things but what is the purpose of it when you cannot make a go of what talents you have been given.

I lost myself somewhere over the years, I became a wife, a mother twice, a single mom, a wife again, a stepmother, a career person, a college graduate but here am I.  What am I?  Where did it go so wrong that I lost myself and my talents do not amount to much.  I have a brilliant education that I worked so hard to get and it has done me no good.  Life has its ups and downs, its struggles, its desires, its good times, its bad times but what is the sense of having talents when they avail themselves of nothing.